so excited!

i am so excited for christmas! i want to wish happy holidays to everyone and my love to all of you.

here is our tree. i went with red and green this year.

love you

sick of other people's shit

here is my rant for the day

deleted. sorry everyone. i was pissed when i wrote this and after i calmed down it realized it was wrong. please accept my apologies.

the web site is in the house!!

i finally launched my web site. 5 or 6 or 7 years in the making and it is finally able to be seen by millions.



i hope.

i pseudo pray

i take a big deep breath of relief and finally realize my dream of world domination is finally going into the embryonic stages from zygote.

also we are sloooooowwwllyy getting a basement. the 'old boy' thats working on it seems to work 3 or 4 hours a day and then calls it quits. even CEO's don't have hours like this. but in the midst of his hairy cairy to get to the finish end of our basement, he screwed up our water lines and we don't have water inthe kitchen. we do in the bathroom and in the washroom but the kitchen is out.


seems the lines are rusty and now it is blocked with crap. plumbers are supposed to be replacing all the pipes in the house.

oh joy of my world..................sorry pms and all.


just make sure you check out the site. the link is on the top of the page.

pain in the literal ass

i thought i would put these absolutely adorable frogs on here. they are just to precious. they are Solomon island baby tree frog that come out of their egg sacks like this instead of being a tadpole. very cool

this CHAIR that i am forced to sit on every day is making my ass hurt so bad that i think i am bruised from it now. to get up is painful. today i went to the gym and walked for 1/2 hr on the tread mill and it felt so good and i usually hate to work out. (not really)

I am going to by a new comfortable chair that i can sit in cuz it feels like nails in my bottom and that is bad.

the concrete guy was at my house. the process has begun.

the end of mold

the mold guys are GONE!!!

it only took exactly 4 weeks for them to demolish most of my basement. now i have bare cement floors and walls and framing. it totally sucks. i really hope that my landlord will get on the ball with the contractors cuz it is freezing down there.

still dizzy. it sucks too. downing Dramamine like it is going out of style (cliche). its the only thing that keeps me from falling over.

jeremy has quit smoking and is on his 7th day. amazing enough he is not being a total bear of it. the doc gave him this med that helps. it's just really expensive.

niomi and i are fighting like always but she is doing well in school and going every day. i hope she keeps this up. she might actually graduate...

drunken spins

i was diagnosed with vertigo several years ago when i was in college. in the last month i have been having severe spins and what i call 'glitches' they are getting worse unfortunately. i went to the doc yesterday and he is having me do a balance test to see how the balance receptors in my brain are working. i am slightly nervous, just wondering what is going on.

hopefully it will be nothing to serious and i will be ok. actually i don't really care what it is i just want the glitch and spins to stop.

my web site is ready and i am just waiting to get some money to launch. i am very excited and will let you know!!!

completely bored

203.04cts 'Millennium Star' D color and internal and external flawless. this is a VERY rare find.(just a side note)

i really don't know what i was thinking when i volunteered to work the day after thanksgiving. every body who calls is rude, i am tired and so completely bored i could scream.



I won't do it again next even if they offer 3 times pay. (maybe if I get a hefty raise between now and then i will think about it)



happy holidays and love you all

moved on

i am so completely over the baby thing.

the kid that i have cured me of that. i really don't want to go through the teen years again when i am 48 and up. i thought it was bad now, i couldn't imagine doing it again and knowing that i made the choice to do that again. i told jeremy that i am going to be selfish and go on a month cruise the day niomi turns 18 and celebrate like samantha off of 'sex in the city' and yell "i don't have a baby!!"

anyways, we still have the mold guys at our house tearing it all apart. to date we have no walls in the spare bedroom, the office, the hallway, and the washroom. we have no carpet at all downstairs and they still have to clean out the vents. the mold guy said that the last people who put up the walls put them right over the old moldy sheetrock and painted right over it. so when we had the problem we had it was a literal 'can of worms'.

but i will have a very nice, new and shiny downstairs when they finish. the only real bitch i have is i have to pack up my studio again. i hate doing that.

i still have kittens, i can't seem to talk anybody into taking one.

and i am really close to launching the web site. its kinda hard to get to the computer.
-it's in niomi's room(which is a total disaster)
-niomi has online schooling so i am fighting with her for computer time
-i am on the computer 8 hrs a day and really don't want to be on when i get home

i really don't like talking on the phone much anymore either

what to do?

i have a heavy matter on my mind. my husband and daughter have asked..on more than one occasion... for me to have another baby. I am completely scared of the whole idea and do not know if i should or not. i wouldn't mind a baby but i do not know about the daycare and how that would all work out and i am very worried about being 34 and 'starting over'.

do i really want to begin again when i am so close to the finish line with niomi(as far as her hitting the 18 mark)?
do i want to be pregnant again when i am trying/struggling with the weight as it is?
can i deny what my family wants?
do i want to have a teenager again and when i am 49?

i do not know the answers and unsure of what to do. any feed back would be great.

minimal stress

it has been a quite week for me. I enjoyed a non-crazy weekend and slept in. We played monopoly and i killed niomi and jeremy. the only thing we did was do tons of laundry and swept the living room. Boring huh?

the only thing is the mold guys are completely tearing apart my whole basement. the office is gone and torn up and the computer is in niomi's room now. all the carpet is gone and i am really worried that i am going to have to pack up the total of my studio. but it is forcing me to work on my web site and it is looking very nice. i am very excited to have it going. lots of interest in it. maybe i will even launch before done. maybe.

other than that, pretty quite. that's ok.

i just remembered that i had a very strange dream. i was in a hospital waiting for boyce to ahve something cut of and i was bored of waiting and so went into the stairwell and jeremy's om was in there with her garden growing pumpkin's and i could take as many as i wanted. the only thing is that i would have to dig them out of the ground like carrots. weird huh?

no sleep no water

my husband and i have been working on this room in our house and found a crack in the foundation a couple of months age and informed the land lord. he never did do any thingg about it so we closed the door and forgot all about it. recently i have been working in my studio and noticed it was kinda smelly and that there was moldgrowing on the baseboards. open up the door and guess what i see- the walls were growing

i let my landlord know that the water was getting worse and the walls were growing and no response. about a week later we noticed the floor was ALOT wetter, well come to find out we alos had a hole in the main water line and it had been leaking for at least 2 weeks.
now, we have a flood specialist to fix and clean it all up. surprisingly nothing of mine got wet.

i have had so many things happen in the last 2 weeks that i REALLY need a vacation.

bitching for the first time

this is totally new to me but i thought i would give it a go. i have had a heckteck???? week trying to keep my house from looking like a garbage bin while trying to make mini corsets as X-mas ornaments by Fri.
I also decided to have a candle party sat morning and Jeremy is hunting everyday these last 3 weeks.

I am soooo very tired.

I am going to sleep all of sunday and worry about the dishes on monday.

Hopefully i will sell some of the corsets to pay for them. also got to make my web site but i am completely sick of sitting as to thats all i do all day at work.