things have really changed

most recently i have been on the pursuit of losing weight yet again...I went to my doctor and told him that i am just very tired of trying my guts out and not getting anywhere. he has recommended that i get the lapband and i am going to go through with it. my insurance is even going to pay for the majority of it!!!

while researching all this joy, my heart problem has cropped up again and i have been in the er 2 times in a week. i went to my doc and they put me on heart meds and a 'king of hearts' to monitor. i also have high blood pressure and feel like crap. i know the pressure is from my weight and my heart is something weird cuz i haven't had a problem in years. but in order to get the lap band i have to have the heart checked out. i even might end up in heart surgery too. the lady at the hospital today told me they have a new procedure to laser the heart where the electric impulses are making the heart do the tach thing. i am definitely scared about the idea of having surgery on my heart. but i am more scared of not doing anything.

so that's my sob story.

good news and tepid news.

niomi is getting her license on monday. i am glad cuz now she run her self around but i am also scared since my baby is in a moving vehicle without us to tell her to watch out.

i also have a commission! one of the people at work has asked me to do 3 painting of some records covers. i am very excited and look forward to doing something challenging and different. i also have decided that i would like to do the spring fair here next year. it is a VERY big thing around here. thousands come from several states to do the fair and when i went i didn't see anything like what i do.
so i am going to give it a shot. maybe i will do well. no, i will do well!!!

jeremy is the same. well older, fatter and with a mohawk now. he is so cute.

steven is being a good boy. not crashing his bike so much now that i put my foot down.

other than that i still have all the cats -7 and 1 wiener dog, an albino hamster that goes in circle cuz we think he had a stroke and my goldfish that are so big that they could be dinner.